the new lil kim?

I must say it is refreshing to see this woman on t.v. and in music videos. I dig her style and her attitude..love me some awesome chicks....

I want all these outfits(post pregnancy of course) i love the hair and the song is really catchy.
AWeSOME!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WBYNK1-k92g

Yeah meat is murder...you wanna eat them alive?

Here is the thing..before I got pregnant I was a vegetarian. I was a Peta supporter until i went to a protest and lets just say they turned me off something fierce. I know that there are some people or companies that do practice ridiculous methods of slaughter but do we really wanna give them painkillers? Then people would be complaining that meat contains drugs! It just seems like the "hip" thing to do is complain about certain stuff . I am tired so I may not be making sense right now but in order to eat meat you have to kill it and What is a humane way to murder something? I personally plan on becoming a vegetarian again after the baby is born and have been kind of feeling gross lately eating meat but I dont think Peta is really trying to conviece meat eaters to be vegetarian . They are preaching to their choir for finacial gain. I must retire..im exhausted and puffy..good nite :)

Here are some ads from Peta....

Feeling productive...

I did my taxes, had a job interview, got my papers for food stamps done and printed resumes. I feel like i did something today...yay! Oh and I got presents in the mail. Diaper genie and a diaper bag! Sigh it was a good day ...not much to say..I am sleepy.
yay weekend yay doing stuffs....

oh ya and we have at least march,april and mays rent covered! Woohoo! off to bed i go <3

Hey ma! I didn't hate it ...yay!

I have always been stubborn about not wanting to watch "Black Snake Moan" . There was something about the way the movie poster looked and/or the way the preview made it see. Now don't get me wrong I am not a prude but there was just something about seeing Christina Ricci's gross skeleton barley wrapped in some hillbilly trailer trash clothing and Samuel L Jackson standing over her that both disgusted and on a very deep hidden level intrigued me as well. Well today I decided to reach into myself and dig that later part out. So I sat down and watched "Black Snake Moan". I actually liked it! I mean I really did. The Father/daughter like dynamic from Samuel L. Jackson and Christina Ricci was very heartwarming but not in that crappy lifetime movie of the week way. Justin Timberlake's Performance was great and Overall it just had a nitty gritty down south redemption feel that I am pretty sure it was going for. I really shouldn't try and be to prejudice about movie posters..I have seen how wrong I can be about the movies.

old school? nah its just the 90s...

While waiting for my friend to see the doctor today we ran across a Nickolodeon Magazine from 1996. She was considered it fairly old but I didn't. I wonder if that just further solidifies my "stuck in the 90's " disease i seem to suffor from. I really dont feel like that was a really long time ago but when you think about it it was fifteen years. I was tweleve when the magazine came out ..it was Feburary 1996. I was in the sixth grade. Now I know my love Bleeding Tree's Neil Sarver would say "shut up i was 25!" But when someone refers to the 90s as such a long time ago I get a little annoyed. Is it denial? Am I living in the past? Is that a bad thing? Oh well! It did get me thinking about the music and fashion..how i loved it! Here is some 90's goodness for ya !
The pop music ...

and the stuff the "Cool kids" were listening to ..

and what i was listening to ...

black eyed peas and lack of excitment ....

I imagine that maybe i was just a differnt person back in the day . I can't really think of another reason why the Black eyed peas just dont excite me anymore. I remember listening to and i was jamming out. Was there something wrong with me? I mean now I hear this and it does little to nothing for me. Have I just become less joyful? Makes me wonder whats wrong with me. I feel like i used to be alot more carefree and I can't figure out if thats a good thing or not. I am going to be a mom soon and I know that alot of responsibility comes with that but I don't want my child to grow up with a mom who is just a ball of nerves and never enjoys anything. I have to find a balance. I think thats where I have the biggest problem . It is almost like an inherited trait. The inability to just find a middle ground and not be one extreme of the other. However i do feel like when i was in my early twenties I had a good balance of responsibility and fun. I could be wrong though that is when i accrued my debt that is still stuck with me unfortunately. But man i did have fun back then! I just have to find a balance. I know it is not uncommon to try and chase those years that you felt the happiest but I can't avoid the fact that I am a different version of myself and am forever growing and changing. I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing but it can be a hard thing to come to terms with. I think with some conscience effort I can find a place with myself that i am comfortable with and that is good and responsibility. I mean isn't that life? A constant journey to find yourself and at the same time growing and changing?
Heres is a song that I just cant get enough of.

Hormones and The fun of it all

I have been such a whinny baby lately! Pregnancy hormones are quite something, I must tell you but today is the worst. I feel like a complete space cadet. Just to write this ..took alot of concentration and the Howling and shrieking of the cat next door is not helping at all! I feel like all i do is eat and stare off into space. Th thats pretty much what i have been doing all day today. I am also nervous about my sonogram tomorrow. Three weeks ago my amniotic fluid was dangerously low then it raised and was slightly low but not enough to panic. I have a check up on the levels tomorrow and i am so worried that somethings wrong. I dont feel like im big enough and my belly button hasnt popped out yet. I am at 26 weeks and two days. I am so nervous. I will be glad when today and tomorrow are over!

where have i been?

So i don't have alot of good excuses for why i have not blogged in almost a month. I do have some small,weak excuses. Lets see...Neil and I moved to a bigger apartment (n the same building but one floor up) and umm ya i have no idea. So I have started my day off right..I got all my job contacts for the week,paid the internet and phone bills ,took my prenatal vitamin and had a healthy breakfast of Fig greek yogurt,A banana, glass of orange juice and fresh blackberries. I want to do the dishes today and maybe just do some light organizing and unpacking. I am so glad that i did not have to leave the house to pay bills! It is so frigging cold.
On to a different topic. One that we can all get behind. CARTOONS! Recently I have been thinking about the cartoons that i watched and what my kiddo will be stuck with. I loved ...


i usually get annoyed when people ramble on about how the "old" things are so much better than what is current but....come on! I also usually hate fig!
Here is what the kids are watching these days...

nothing wrong with them...but a completely different feel. I prefer the old ones but i think we all do because of the nostalgic factor. Sigh....
I just realized that i am watching Martha Stewart's "living...I have 98 days until my due date! damn you nesting !